Truth is that yes guys do notice me and since you left I've slowly acknowledged their attention. I'd be a liar if I said I haven't. Yes, I'm polite, I smile, and I accept their compliments. I laugh at their jokes and give witty replies. I'm a nice person, why wouldn't I. What you don't know is that none of that means anything to me. I'm indifferent to all of it. I might as well be alone because all the attention in the world means nothing to me if it's not from you. My laughter isn't genuine unless it was caused by you. My smiles are only real when you are behind them. I only feel warm inside when you tell me sweet things. I'm only myself when I'm with you. So when you ask if guys notice me, I won't lie anymore. When you tell me "Get iiiiit", I'll reply with maybe I will. It's what is expected of me right? I'm supposed to move on and pretend you don't mean the world to me anymore. Pretend I don't miss you more everyday. I mean after all, You don't want me anymore anyway. We're just friends now. Remember.
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