I'm sorry

I feel horrible. I've been treating the people around me very poorly. I haven't really been a good friend to anyone lately.  I've been ignoring most people, And acting like a complete bitch to the rest. I Know I have a lot going on, but that is no excuse for my actions. Again I feel horrible, but I've been finding it kind of hard to control my emotions lately. I don't mean to treat people as badly I have these past couple weeks, and they're probably wondering why. I'm honestly just not comfortable speaking about what's going on. I feel it's something that should remain between me and my family until others need to know about it. Even so, I'm just not the kind of person who likes to tell my problems to other people. I tend to hold it all in. Hence the reason for my sudden outbursts on people lately. As for the people I've been ignoring, I only do it to prevent myself from most likely spazzing out. Believe me, none of this is personal. I'm just hurting a lot right now. To anyone who knows me and is reading this, I am sincerely sorry. From the bottom of my heart and I hope you can please forgive me. I honestly have been thinking lately, and I think it might be best if I just avoid people all together. Well except for a certain few. I guess you have to understand me to tolerate me like this lol. Anyway I realize I'm all over the place with this blog so I'll end it here. I just want to apologize again to everyone. I'm sorry:(

until later,

JNR