For once, Something not about me

One of my best friends recently posted something and I wanted to share it... I'll explain after.

found it, read it, cried about it, couldn't reblog it, copied & pasted it.   

I love this girl. I’m in love with this girl. We dated for a year & a half. And regardless of all the pain we went through, and arguments, it was the happiest time of my life. I finally felt whole. She destroyed my loneliness & filled it with nothing but joy…
The way I would stare at her when she wasn’t looking… I don’t know if she ever knew, or noticed. But I did that because in my eyes, there was no sight more amazing, more beautiful than that of her own.
The way she would smile. The way she would fiddle with her hands when she was nervous. They way her heart would beat out of control whenever I was near. I wonder if she knew mines did too♥. I know her better than anyone else. I payed close attention to every single detail of her being. I wanted to know everything about her. Till she became a part of me.
But I hurt her so many times… I’ve hated myself for it. The nights I’d lay in tears because my heart could feel the pain of her own even miles away.
We’re not together anymore. I decided she was better off without me, even though I NEED her. I told her lies so that she would hate me. Told her I was unhappy with her… But that’s so far from the truth. I just wanted to push her away. So she could be free of me, free of hurt & wouldn’t be held back.
So now I’m alone again… & nothing I ever do will make me feel the same as I did with her… I guess I’ll have to learn how to live half alive. A part of me hope she sees this. But I doubt she’d even believe it I love this girl.
I’m in love with this girl…
And I’ll never, ever love again…       

This is a blog post of my closest most dearest friends. It was something that her Ex wrote about her and she reblogged it. I asked her if I could post this because it really touched me and I related to it on a whole other level. She said yes right away and explained that it's not something to be ashamed of. Love isn't always easy and sometimes it doesn't always keep people together. 

My heart seriously broke for her. These are two people who are seriously in love. Who clearly still want to be with one another. They made it through so much and always came out stronger in the end. The passion they had for each other was visible even to the most emotionally retarded person. If anyone ever had a chance for a lasting relationship, I would have thought it would be them.  It's like they were each others perfect counter-part. They had the kind of relationship I'd kill to have. 

The fact that in the end, not even they could make it was a  little bit of a blow. If two people who were clearly meant to be with each other couldn't stand together anymore, what chance does that leave for someone like me. It's almost like finding out that Santa Clause wasn't real or that your favorite pet actually died instead of running away. But I digress. I just wish I could mend my best friends heart. The both of them. 

well here's to hoping for the best. Maybe there's a tiny chance for them. Well I'm off. 

Until Later

JNR