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I am so emotionally drained. I honestly would love nothing more than to succumb to the tears building up. My life is about to be changed forever. My families lives are about to ripped apart. And I wish I could just give in to all the pain that's completely engulfed me. That is not an option for me though. I have to be the strong one. I have to be the one to hold it together. Im the one drying my mother's eyes instead of the other way around. I have to be the rock in this shit storm we're all about to face together. I feel so selfish for not wanting to be though. I want to be like them. I want to cry and hold on to someone. I want to feel helpless for once. I am so ashamed of myself for feeling this way, but I feel as though I might crack soon. Does this make me a bad person?