Imagine this. You're a person who refuses to ever give up. Who never quits. Who fights for what they want until they 1. get what they've been fighting for or 2. Fight until they can no longer fight anymore. So again imagine that the one thing you want to fight for, or refuse to give up on is the one thing that cannot be fought for. Its unattainable. Unreachable. And the pain that comes along with it's loss is unbearable. Could you imagine what that feels like? I could. In fact I'm living it. It very well has to be the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. This says a lot to anyone who knows me. It goes against everything I believe in. It goes against the very essence of who I am. So for one more moment imagine just one more thing. Imagine that that one thing you would fight for is a person whom you love. And this person cannot and will not fight for you. And as angry you want to be at this person, as much as you want to yell and beg and fight with them... You just can't. Because for once you understand. And the love you possess for this person is so strong that you would never want to tear them apart in that way. How torn would you feel? How helpless or lost would this make you? Would you know what to do if you knew the outcome of what was about to happen? Could you walk away from what your heart seems to beat for?
Whoever said love was easy has obviously never truly been in love before. But if someone were to ask me if it was worth it or would I go through this again knowing how much pain was about to come... Well my answer would simply be YES. It was more than worth it, and I would go through it 1000 more times. Because My life without ever knowing HIM just would never had made sense. Until you have been through what I've been through then you will never truly understand my meaning or how this feels. I suppose these are just the words from a girl with a broken heart and is wishing on a miracle.
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