My Public Love Letter

I wish I could explain. I wish I could come up with the words. I could play you a song. I could write you a poem. I could tell you every single minute how I feel. But truth be told.. 100 poems, or a thousand songs couldn't even come close to explaining how I feel. Sometimes I feel crazy.. i must admit. 2 months ago you only just popped into my life. But through the ups and downs, Ive still been the happiest I have ever been. Life hasn't been easy. Granted I brought some of it upon myself, but its been hard nonetheless. So please don't think I'm absolutely bonkers when I say that sometimes I just don't feel like I deserve you. Somehow through the years I've been convinced that I deserve all the things that happened to me. I never knew why. I just assumed that that was the way it was. But then you popped up. And you turned my world upside down. I never thought people like you existed. Because all of a sudden I'm looking forward to something. I find myself smiling at the most random moments. Especially when i wake up=] My heart jumps a mile high every time my phone goes off. And omg I get butterflies more than an entire room full of adolescent girls who just touched Justin Beiber! I giggle now. I write your name with mine in little hearts everywhere.  So how is it that i get to have you. How did i become this lucky. You became my best friend, my adviser, my cheerleader, the one who pushes me, my love<3.  You believe in me, when I cant believe in myself.  You amaze me! Sometimes I have to remember to catch my breath because even though it's been such a short time you leave nothing short of breathless. I know things have been tough (especially recently), but I believe in us. I believe that we can make it through anything. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't still a little afraid. I suppose that's natural in any relationship. I know it sounds a little weird, but I love that you have insecurities and that you're jealous. It just shows I'm not the only one =] it gives me hope. I don't know if that makes any sense at all. There are so many things I want to say, But I think the only thing that can sum any of this up is this. I love you Danny No Middle Name Daniel Ming Mangowong Chen! And I believe that's enough to get us through anything.

To infinity and beyond ;)
JC